21 October 2010

This is Non-Fiction: Lectori Salutem

First of all I'd like to thank you that read my blog. I want to give you everything I have just to see you smile or cry with my stories. I don't plan for them to be scary, but I want them to make you think.

I'll make this quick, before I lose my nerve. I'm going to stop sharing for awhile. Write a lot of nothing and keep them close to my chest instead of rushing out to greet the world at my door with fresh fiction.

You did nothing wrong. Neither did I, but I'm dealing with an internal situation that dictates I must regroup. I'm fine. I'm not dying, not any faster than I should be. I had a door open for me, a sense of excitement, and then I had it taken away because of what I do when I'm not writing or being a mother and a wife.

It pains me but I must make a decision. What will it be?

I guess I'll know in a bit.

C.C.

26 comments:

Icy Sedgwick said...

*hugs*

Maria A. Kelly said...

Best to you, dear. (hug) Hope you'll be back among us soon.

Sam said...

*Hugs* Take as long as you need, we'll all still be here when you get back. I'll be thinking of you.

Marisa Birns said...

Thank you for letting us know so we wouldn't worry.

Of course. It's important that you do the things that need to be done. No matter how hard.

You know we'll be here.

Take care, Carrie.

*hug*

Laura Eno said...

I hope you resolve it in a way that makes you happier on the other side. *hugs* We'll still be here for you.

Karen from Mentor said...

I'll keep the light on for you.
Take your time and regroup.
Hugs luv. Take care of you.
Karen:0)

shannon said...

What you're doing is brave. Take care of you. {{{hugs}}}

Carrie said...

You are all the best support group a writer could ever have.

I love you.

~Carrie

Pia Veleno said...

You know I'm here for you if you need to talk.

Kerry Allen said...

You know I'm not the hugging type.

The trunk of my car, however, is roomy and stocked with duct tape and shovels, should your need for emotional support bend in that direction.

Paul D. Brazill said...

Take care, mate. It's always a good idea to step back for a bit.

Deanna said...

I'll miss your stories Carrie, but I certainly understand.

It takes more guts to step back and figure out which way to go than it does to ignore it altogether and plunge ahead blindly.

All the best to you and know that I'm here if you need me.

Sulci Collective said...

Hey Carrie, we all gotta retrench and recharge in order to preserve our strengths and energies. Your loyal following online will absolutely still be here for when you're ready to emerge and on a personal level should you want to chew out any subject at all, writing or otherwise. All the best and we're with you the whole way.

Bests

Marc

Rob said...

Hey, good luck to you on this. I hope that whatever happened sorts itself out and you come out of it stronger. You've a gift for writing and while we'll miss you here, we'll be here when you are able to return. You've got friends here, through thick and thin. Take care.

darkandthunder said...

i do not know you, but ran across one of your posts while searching for something online the other night.i was expecting more.Then saw this..

been there,done that..i go 'why didn't i do more or something else' or 'why didn't she do more or something else'. even while i am loving every moment of the tears and doubts.

in the morning, i go, 'i am just addicted to the drama of it all'.which feels great like 'no one else could possibly know something this great'.but then, i realize, 'whoa,then it is my fault'.

it can get into a cycle

but at least it is one hell of a ride

Jax said...

Good luck, and well wishes. I hope you find what you need.

Bukowski's Basement said...

Hope you're well, Ms. C... We'll be here.

John Wiswell said...

I waited a while, not sure if I should wait for you to make clearer what's going on. I hope you're alright and that this decision isn't too grave. Best wishes for you, Carrie.

~Tim said...

Take the time you need. Be well.

Diandra said...

I wish you all the best!

Gracie said...

All my best wishes to you, dear Carrie. I hope whatever you're going through will have the best resolution possible.

You're one of the best writers ever. I mean that. We'll all be here when you get back. You can count on it.

Take care. <3

Harry said...

Sorry to hear this but I wish you the best of luck in all you do.

Carrie said...

Thanks everyone. Your words really strengthen me. You are my religion.

Carrie

Lily Mulholland said...

Carrie, hope it all works out for you. I totally get where you're coming from, even though I don't share your situation. That superwoman myth sucks the big one. Hang in there. I'm hanging on... just... in the belief things will get better/back on an even keel. Hugs, my friend :)

Jason Coggins said...

What those guys said. Love & respect you (superlative inserted here). Good luck my friend x x x

Annie said...

congratulations for making yourself the most important project at the moment. SO few people do that - especially women.. and particularly mothers.
regroup, reclaim yourself and your space.
I'll be checking your site from time to time - without trying to be too creepy and stalker like though....
*smiles*
thanks for all your hard work and inspiration with CW and CYOA.